The Beginning Of An End

new song

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 23:35:42 GMT

Three Weeks

I don’t remember anything at all
Picking myself up from the bathroom floor
A hand full of vomit
Loose change in my pocket
The end of our summer ball

The sun comes up on another hung over day
Mouths to dry for the words I want to say
All I know is I’m all alone
All alone in someone else’s home
My dates already gone away

It’s just another ruined tuxedo
The chill of the wind from the open window
The hairs on my neck shivers down my spine
My mind is a mess but I’m doing just fine
After another night of sexual innuendos

The end of our school years
The start of everything I have feared
Time to grow up be strong
This little life doesn’t last that long
Another day as death seems to always near

3 weeks since I’ve been outside
3 weeks since I’ve touched the sky
3 weeks since my love life died
And I cried
All the time
When will I find
Someone to blow my mind

Another day with no friends
All I need is too pretend
Just cheesy smiles and fake grins
Another twenty-four hour lie in
When will this nightmare end?

Going insane talking to myself
Talking to myself because there’s no one else
An open wound and no conversation
Lets see how deep I can make this laceration
Trying to survive this life I’ve been dealt

Nothing to do nowhere to go
My life is given one final blow
Been a failure all my life
An empty ghost haunting the night
My feelings I’d rather not show

What to do with my degree
Lead my life on an empty CV
Too many skipped class’s
Too many geeks with thick rimmed glasses
Success holds no guarantees

3 weeks since I’ve seen the stars
3 weeks we’ve been apart
3 weeks to break my heart
More scars
For me to chart
It’s bizarre
Just lyrics for me and my guitar

new song

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 17:05:50 GMT

boo, ello everyone, i got a new song, is meant to be really slow and accoustic and is quite self explanitory really so yeah there weo go, let me know owt u fink, i like it, how bout u??????

Dont forget

Sunrise at 6am
Alarm bells ring at 6am
Today is the start of life
Roll out of bed
Put my best clothes on
I’m in the mirror doing my hair again
My wristband and your neck chain
Can’t be late for the early train
Cross my fingers for some luck
Drinking coffee for my caffeine rush
A day out with my best friends
A few months it’s been a while
Bring my camera and my best smile
The sun shines through the broken clouds
The birds and trees making beautiful sounds
And it’s easy to pick you out of the crowd
Now don’t forget
Don’t forget
Don’t forget
You look gorgeous
You’re always gorgeous
Because you’re special to me
The cool clothes that you wear
The scent of your perfume
And the twinkle in your eye
Every time you start to smile
So pretty like the stars up in the sky
You held onto my hand
As we shopped around
Looking at random things
My gaze is fixed upon you
And I don’t know what to do
I’ve not known you all that long
But we share a magic bond
A friendship so strong
Now don’t forget
Don’t forget
Don’t forget
The look that you gave me
The smile that you gave me
The hug that was soft and gentle
The softness of your hair
The smoothness of your skin
And the gift I gave for you to treasure
So you’ll always remember
This day that we spent together
A kiss on your hand
As the day has to end
But thank you for being perfect
You give me one last hug
Before I ran out of luck
Time for the empty train ride home
Without you I am so alone
But you’re the best friend I have known
Now don’t forget
Don’t forget
Don’t forget
This was the best day of my life

the best day of my life easily

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 19:40:37 GMT

there is only one word for today, perfect,

i will start at the begining hehe always good palce to start

well i got up at 615 so early i know lol but got up 615 got ready and stuff and u know my hair looks fukin awesome 2day i was well impressed and my fringe continues to grow yay :) so made meself look nice put me beige roads on me blue ape t shirt wiv the cartoons of hannibal lector jason, freddy krueger, and the dude out of clockwork orange, and put me blue flowery shirt on oh yeah haha, so was ready by 710 jsut enuf time to make me smell nice hehe so drown meself in 212 cus i lovet hat shit haha, then grabbed me bag and went to get the bus, bus came 725 plenty of time to get to town for me train got to town bout 755 bought me train ticket to manc (cus thas where i was goin) and me train was jsut 10 mins alte which was kewl hehe, bought me a magazine to read on train kewl posters in decent read lol passed the time, got to manc at 940 text ella and laura(not my ex laura a diff laura hehe a kewl laura we is good friends) to see where they were and they gott here at 955 which was kewl, got huge hug off ella which was aamzin she gives amazin hugs then got huge hug of laura me 1st ever hug off her hehe and she gives amazin hugs aswell, god they both looked well beautiful they always do tho hehe, so was well kewl, then we walked into town

1st off we went to afflecks which is always kewl hehehe looked at clothes and posters and loadz of fingz was well good, laura tripped me up on the stairs iw ent flyin haha was so funny (well i did try and trip her up 1st hehe) but she gave me huge hug to make up for it, and omg ella walks way to fast me and laura cant keep upw iv her hehe, we was in afflecks bout an hour cus wen we came out it was 11 hehe is kewl in there tho, so then neway we went to debanhams cus they had underware sale on and ella is obssessed wiv underwear lol haha was kewl tho cus they dont feel uncomfortable round me which is great, and we all linked arms while in there was so good, hehe, then i dont exactly remember where we went hehe just lots and lots of shops was well kewl tho i love girly days out,

so then we went in boots cus ella wanted sum eyeshadow and me and laura had huge make up fight hehe me arms was coverd in diff coloured shit hehe, then wen we finished in there ella was 10 steps ahead goin out so i jsut naturally put me hand out to laura who was behind so she cud catch up and she grabbed me hand and started holdin it awwwwwww was so amazin i neva get to hold hands wiv ppl hehe so was well kewl

neway from topshop i bought ella a kewl top for her bday prezzie was relaly nice actually was 2 diff shades of orange and was stripey wiv white top underneath, so that was kewl and while in there we tried on all the girly sunglasses hehehe, and ella walked off so me and laura was tlkin then she sed wanna see how hard i punch so she hit me in me arm omg fukin killed then we played peanuts hehe and she killed me wiv her weaker hand im such a looser hahaha neway me and laura went to find ella and she held me hand again :) and linked arms wiv me hehe was so sweet and we found her eventually hehe, while ella was queing to pay for her top i got her me and laura was playin wiv her hair and she has won the record for the softest hair ever now hehehe and we was plattin her hair was well kewl hehe in lil angel plats hehe then wen ella got her top she gave me huge huggle awwwww hehe hugglez are the best

by then we decided to go to the food court get sum lunch my treat of corse so we went to the pizza hut got lunch hehe was fun cus we chatted lots and had lots of laffs hehe was so much fun, newho wen we finished lunch i swa this really pretty girl i mean really really pretty i had already seen ehr b4 in the day and she well looked at me for ages honestly cus laura and ella saw her do it aswell i was like no way cant be, but then wen we got out the food court she was there againlookina t me and i cudnt believe it i neva get checked out hahahaha deary me was weird hehe was good tho hehe

newho we went round more shops seeing lots and lots of hott emo dudes pwhar manc is amazin for hot emo dudes hehe, went to free spirit roxy o neils well kewl surf shops hehe was good and decided to buy them both a prezzie from me cus they been really good friends to me they were really there for me wen i split wiv loz so was my way of sayin thanks and wot did i decide to get them like i get all me friends SHOESSSSSSSSSSSSS hehehe so told them both to find sum they liked laura found sum nice vans white and green was really nice and in roxy she saw sumkewl ones but wanted to look elsewhere ella cudnt find much she liked, but she had to get other stuff neway so we went to h+m and while laura was tryin sum stuff on me and ella needed to find sum posh trousers for her for work so we was walkin round and then ella held my ahnd for a bit awwwwww was so sweet hehe and got more hugglez hehe but ella cudnt find ne so she told me to stay wiv laura while she went and looked in couple other shops so me and laura was in h+m tryin to find sum kewl 3/4 lengths in her size hehe and the staff didnt have a clue lol but was kewl :) then ella came back cus she cudnt find nefin,

so we decided to go back to triangle to get shoesies hehe laura cudnt choose between these kewl roxy shoes or these vans she was umming and arring for ages hehe in the end she went for the vans hehe, they looked really good on her tho really suited her, got me wanting a pair hehehe so i got them her and she gave me such a huge hug omg was such an amazin hug and the woman who worked there jsut went awwwwwwwwwww hehehe was so nice tho so got her them, then ella fought bout gettin the roxy ones but didnt in the end, so we had to go find ella sum shoes, on the way we went in body shop and we was tryin all the fancy stuff hehe tryin out different moisturisers and fings hehe, so im coverd in different products and things now hehe smells nice tho hehe

she had to go get sum 3/4 lengths aswell so went to sum shop hehe and while she was tryin them on she put her new top on hehe looked well good on her :)so we went to schuh ella found sum kewl shoes but didnt have ne in her size by this time was gettin on cus they ahd to get 5pm train back, so i said i wud buy her sum shoes next time i see her cus she had a piano lesson at 6, so we headed back to the station got there and was jsut time to grab a starbucks hehe well so we thought but they ended up missin there train but there next was was only 10 mins so we was on the platform saying our goodbyes and got even more hugglez and i swear ella and laura give amazin hugglez hehe, laura kept thanking me for her shoes hehe awwwwww how sweet, and got more hugglez off ella hehe but then they ahd to go, i didnt want the day to end cus it was the best day of my life

there was so much more stuff that we did but i fink u get the picture it was the msot perfect day of my life seriously just a shame it has to come to an end, but omg im on such a high right now, is like thas how i always imagined a perfect day out wiv friends holdin hands and linkin arms lots of hugglez was so so sweet and amazing hehe

like i say jsut perfect

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 19:42:50 GMT

i dont lack confidence, i lack courage

new song

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 01:09:43 GMT

hey everyone well no1 lol cus like no1 read this shit haha but just felt like writting a song so i did is meant to be relaly slow reallya ccoustic and as the title suggest u can guess wot its bout lol

Just another soppy love song

Tell me why do I care so much
When you never listen to a single word that I say
Tell me why do I care so much
When you just make me feel like I'm in the way
I see my friend with the wrong guys
I see my friend living the world in lies
My friend falls for Mr tough
My friend likes a bit of rough
But what about me?
What about me?

But everything is going to be all right
Because you always got me picking up the pieces
But everything is going to be all right
Because our everlasting friendship never ceases
Tell me would he buy you random gifts?
Would he give you a goodnight kiss?
Would he want to fall in love?
With you I know that I would
Because He’s not good enough for you
No not good enough for you

I'm always here for you babe
But where were you when I needed you
I'm always here for you babe
Because I always seem to know just what to do
You say everything will be fine
Be patient just give it time
All the problems I have
They just make me sad
So please save me
Please save me

You always make the sun shine
With a smile on your beautiful face
You always make the sun shine
A new day that I shouldn’t waste
Would you be my princess?
Would you have no regrets?
There’s something to get off my chest
I think you know what’s coming next
I am in love with you
Yes I love you

new song

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 01:48:05 GMT

hey sjut wrote new song cus i can and cus im bored, is kewl tho me like si like some of the lyrics in it and i like the story jsut made it up cus i can and i was bored u know u wanna let me know wot u fink of it plzzzzzzzzzzzz *begs*

Photographs

Baby smile your on camera
No more hiding things from me
Baby smile you’ve just been caught
You don’t know what I have seen
No more questions now I have the answers
Tonight I know where you have been

Running back to your old boyfriend
The picture was digitally enhanced
Wanting more than I could give
Your emotionally unbalanced
What made you lay your lips on his
You’ve just had your last chance

I'm not surprised your in denial
Just another one of your lies
I can prove you wrong
So give me your reasons why
Your shocked to find out what I know
After I trusted you all this time

I don’t understand why you want him
Is he better than me when he messes you around?
Does he ever tell you your beautiful
Or even make you feel homeward bound
What compensation is there in writing another song?
Afterall this is just another heartbreaking sound

The photograph it never lies
The photograph is my third eye
To see all the things you blinded me from
To see all the things that you’ve never done
The photograph it never lies

A picture tells a thousand stories
This one told the end of me loving you
Thinking you could get away with your deception
Took me for a ride thinking I was your fool
Its over now that I caught you out
The start of the end of your abuse

I'm not interested in the words you say
Because this isn’t a first it’s happened before
I tried to conquer your reputation
But all your friends call you a whore
Guess the stories are true about you girl
As obscenities bounce off the nearest wall

There it is in plain view for everyone to see
You stood in his doorway giving him a kiss
Your shirt half open flapping in the breeze
Standing there with your hands on his hips
The perfect picture of a perfect tragedy
Now you look scared because your in the shit

The photograph it never lies
The photograph is my third eye
To see all the things you blinded me from
To see all the things that you’ve never done
The photograph it never lies
The photograph is my third eye
To see all the things you blinded me from
To see all the things that you’ve never done
The photograph it never lies

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 22:48:27 GMT

well 2day i got up bout 1230 cus b4 then i was asleep, thenw ent downstairs grabbed a snack and me sis and me baby niece was here aw she is so cute hehehe she so loves me hehe newho then i heard a faint noise and realised it was my fone i ran no ran is the wrong word sprinted upstairs dived over the bed grabbed the fone in one movement and answerd it and it was mitch she asked me to go brum i was liek bloody ell is bit late but u know me cudnt let her down so got ready and went out got 2 brum at 3 saw mitch she had ekewl trews onand her shoes are nice then we walked to art shop to get a pad then back round bull ring to nandos had lunch was yummy hahamitch cudnt handle the hotness it made her nose bleed haha then walked round for a bit went animal but my fiancee wasn there damn i was well gutted then went random shops pound shop then went to meet clair out of work then we went primark was in there foreva mitch and claire bought same stuff haha how pathetic hahahahaha then we went round bull ring bit more bought mitch two tops cus like she makes me hahaha then went kfc for more food haha thena after we finished there claire and mitch went home so i made me way home got home bout 910 now am here

so sleepy

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 17:14:17 GMT

omg wots wrong wiv me day i can ahrdly stay awake haha i got up bout 1230 lay on bed bed wiv tennis on then fell asleep woke up at three got a snack lay on me bed more fell asleep woke up bout 5 omg i jsut like slept all day haha and im still tired lol strange haha am bored sum1 make me not bored

jsut another happy monday

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 21:14:31 GMT

well its the begning of another week of nothingness lol yay so erm yeah im good and happy which is kewl, but omg this mornin me and me mom had a row cus even tho they were specifically told not 2 ppl actuallyg ot me stuff for me bday arghhhhh me mom was like wot u gonna do wiv them i was like nuffin she sed u cant do that u will offend them im like well i cant give them back cus iw ill offend them and we had huge row bout family and shit and grrrrrrrr so in the end i had to keep the stuff they got me as to not offend them even tho they offended me by gettin me stuff so grrrrr but aint that bad me sis in law got me 3 well kewl punk cds 2 compilations and a rammones double cd 57 rammones songs how kewl so thas kewl :) and got cash but fink will spend that on me friends isntead, so yeah end of day wernt as bad as i fought and me and me mom made up, and is quite kewl cus does feel like i iant had a bday which is good, means i can continue fooling myself im not old lol, but aint as bad as i foguht it wud be, newho is liek no1 online so i got no1 2 tlk too aint good lol im bored sum1 save me, so ermm yeah i have nuffin to do no1 to see same as always hahaha so looks like more trips 2 town on me own haha but im good aint been havin much sleep tho is too hot but i dont care stayin up late is kewl cus i say so, gettin up in a mornin isnt got mroe sleep last nite tho was bit kewler after the rain came and washed poor spider out hehe im in a random mood quite hyper punk music always makes me hyper hahaha alte nite tv rules atm got all alte nite moosic on had download highlights all weekend was kewl, and got sum poker on is kewl i fink am goin 2 play bowls in garden now cus is no1 online will be kewl hehe then big bro at 10 then shameless and iw ill see where i go from there and im so lovin this rammones double cd 57 rammones songs thas like 4 albums worth how kewl

too tired and too hot

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 11:16:26 GMT

so yeah i had maybe four hours sleep last nite cus its too fukin hott grrrrr so be warned i am exceptionally ratty 2day so if i snap then im sorry but im so fukin tired and relaly aint in the mood for nefin the end

too hot

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 17:28:39 GMT

see this is how cursed i am i went to pop up town and waetehrs been beautiful all week nice and kewl but i go up town today the only day wen its roastin way to hot 2day was not good, newho dun me hair diff 2day and me likes i cant be arsed 2 upload piccies thru photobucket then on here cus quite franky im a lazy bastard so instead if u want piccies i will send u, newho town was kewl aint been in a while got me dad a richard prior dvd cus he is funny, got funny card aswell, then i looked about went to another world which is now forbidden planet and i swear the stuff in thier gets kewler everytime newho i got a thundercats t shirt form there how kewl hehehe then walked about a bit went mvc gadget shop the entertainer tk max and game and rowfers then came back home amazingly was this well pwetty chik that got off same stop as me i was like :O cus she was pwetty and cus no pwetty chiks ever get off my stop lol and and and she had a spongebob squarepants bag how amazingly kewl hehe, newho ws way to hot 2day omg to hot so got home played on comp and here i am lol 2moz it looks like im doin nothing hahahaha sunday i will watch cricket i spose cus got fuk all else to do, oooooooi finally had a shave 2day hahaha omg that was longest i didnt have a shave eva hahaha my razor wasnt liking it was bit of a challenge hahaha is good to be smooth again hehe i have huge spot arghhhhhh am feelin good 2day is kewl probly cus i did sumfin lol actually got out saw ppl hahahaha my sister and bro in alw are here now but i so aint goin 2 tlk 2 them cus they will only go on bout sunday so fukt hat shit thas it really

toodles

raaa

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 22:21:22 GMT

so yeah im feelin good today which is good and stacey got online which is good put me mind to rest a bit her comp broke and her bro got her fone and she aint seen him in while thas y she aint been in touch lol but yeah was good tlkin2her again, fink will pop up town 2moz have look about gottag et me dad sumfin mite treat meself to sumfin i dunno but i need a shave so fink ill pop up shud be kewl will go to rowfers game tk max another world hmv mvc gadget shop and yeah see if is nefin else about hehe better if i had sum1 to go wiv tho hehe newho am feelin good 2day is kewl :) toodle pip oooooo thnx for text earlier mitch

fed up

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 20:46:40 GMT

im fed up of feelin shitty all the time, i will cheer up a lil bit but then jsut feel the same again i hate it i really do and im starting to hate me and it aint good, sunday is another day closer and its really gettin to me it seriously is even wen i find sum1 2 tlk 2 i seem to be snappin at them, i hate evryfin atm its pissin me off i dont want sunday to exist or any day after it 2 be honest, i need to get out its drivin me mad bein in a swear nuffin to take me mind off stuff

on a lighetr note thnx to hemi last nite for sharing that beautiful song with me omg did that make me fukin cry jesus hahaha was so beautiful tho

11days wivout a shave now

and my mom forgot to buy sum bog roll 2day omg he had 2 borrow sum off me sis haha

thas it still feel shit lifes still shit

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 21:35:22 GMT

to be on the edge of breaking down,
and there's no one there to save you,
no you dont know what its like,
welcome to my life

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 18:41:10 GMT

on another point haha im desperate for a shit but we aint got no fukin bog roll mom sed she will get sum 2moz im like arghhhhhh i need a shit jsut fought wud share that wiv u

ooooooo

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 18:39:41 GMT

i have fallen in love with a new song simple plan - welcome to my life

omg is awesome i swear

am feelin ebtter 2day am more cheery which is good desperatly need a shave tho and decided wot im doin wiv me hair ive created a new hair style hahaha how kewl im keepin me fringe gonna grow it and that side of me head gonna grow me hair but keep it pretty flat then runnin accross diagnolly is where me hair is gonna stick up so kind looks bit like mohekan and then other side is gonna be shorter and spikey hehe i did it 2day jsut messin around wiv me hair and looks well good haha jsut need sum of it to grow more hehe but am happy wiv it,

yeah feelin more cheerful 2day which is good mite pop up town 2moz or day afta to get me out and make me have a shave aint been up town in ages mite have a look round mite buy sum stuff i dunno lol we will see,

tlkin 2 lil callie may rules hehe we was jsut tlkin bout dudes and stuff and she sed she always likes her dudes wiv sum meat on them as she put it and even tho we wernt tlkin bout me or nefin amde me feel ebtter to know is ppl like her out in the world, and omg everyone wiv a bf shud take note of her cus she has the most perfect bf ever omg he wud put ne1 2 shame the way she talks about him is so beautiful he is well amazin so am glad she got sum1 special hehe

neway im in good mood and i love that simple plan song

2day i got up played on comp then at 2 went and watched moosic channels for ages which is where i heard the song and omg inme's new song was on thas so kewl waited so so long for their new stuff so gotta get their album and i lvoe foo fighters new song was some good stuff on, and omg wen did the lead singer out of papa roach get hot i didnt even know it was them till there name came up on the screen he always used to be fat and ugly now he isnt haha how weird, and god fightstar are on all the chanels i relaly dont like them i mean i wanted to give them a chance but i jsut do not like the moosic i dont like his voice and jsut sounds so out of tune wen they slow it down just cant be doin wiv them, but was kewl watchin them i didnt even know we had sky back thas how much me rents tell me lol

newho am feelin good for a change relaly wanan get out tho fink writtin that song was good got sum of me frustrations out and this simple plan song is so kewl kinda makes u realise u aint alone cus is other ppl that feel same as u is well good

newho thas enuf from me

toodles

new song

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 17:18:28 GMT

hey everyone new song for u all is jsut a random punk song about how shit my life is really hahaha let me know wot u fink lol

this place we call life

A-level physics they were the days
Protons quarks and sound waves
Teacher getting high on weed
Double physics after a double free
Frisbee sessions in the common room
Never short of anything to do
How I long to be back in those days

Today it’s a different story
Endless days that are incredibly boring
Window frames full of prison bars
Reopening my closed scars
Summer days stuck inside
No friends feel I’ve been left behind
Welcome to my life story

Feeling old past my years
I'm also running gout of gears
Wanna be out there meeting new girls
Wanna be out there exploring the world
The soundtrack of my life
With champagne now on ice
Ready and waiting for one good year

One too many fights
I know I won’t be alright
My suicide I can arrange
If tomorrow doesn’t change
Then I don’t wanna sleep tonight

People take, take some more then piss off
Quite frankly I’ve had enough
Of being pushed around
And then put down
Like a house trained pet
And that’s what I don’t get
So I’ve decided to tell you off

I'm no longer silent get used to it
My opinions become unmated
I am no longer your bitch
So your plans have hit a glitch
I'm no longer quiet
Because I know that I'm right
I'm no walk over anymore get used to it

Stuck inside this place we call life
After all it isn’t right
The worlds not perfect
I think by now I know it
Wishing for better things
Asking what tomorrow brings
Do I really wanna be in this life?

One to many fights
I know I won’t be alright
My suicide I can arrange
If tomorrow doesn’t change
Then I don’t wanna sleep tonight

so ermmmmm yeah

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 17:15:56 GMT

so yeah nuffin to report really 2day been borin as usual watched a film played on comp then went and watched moosic channels was good 2day had good moosic on foo fighters were on greenday, tbs, among others and this well kewl band called the mascara story were on and the one dude out of them is soooooooo fine yeah now im here woo oooo i did wash me hair and the election ppl came round and i made a fool out of him askin him laodz of stuff and he didnt know afing hahaha so funny, i relaly cud do wiv a shave been over a week now startin to look like dave grohl hahahaha and im finkin bout maybe growin me hair more hmmmmm i dunno mite die it black aswell i always wanted black hair, my days seem 2 be spent waitin to tlk 2 me new tinternet friend cus she always manages to make me smile lil callie may hehe thas such a beautiful name hehe she always knows wot 2 say to cheer me up lol wish evry1 else did lol but yeah tlked to her till 5am or sumfin last nite hahaha was kewl then me m8 ella accidently foned me at 830 wakin me up so i am pretty sleepy now lol am feelin bit better 2day dont wanna eat tho meanin me mom will have a rant wen she gets in oh well,

so yeah 2day was the same as yday which will be the same as tomorrow great im fed up wiv summer already and is only june got anova 3 and half months til i go back 2 uni hmmm wants to hurry up

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 22:58:23 GMT

yet again a weekend wiv nuffin 2 do or no1 to see great

40 hours and still goin

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 00:15:26 GMT

so me and rich didnt go to the footy cus coach was fully booked so cudng et home so he came round mine we watched it here and he stayed we was up all nite playin games on ps2 was well kewl hehe had sum beers sum food propa lads nite in, was kewl hadnt had one in a while was good laff, and incredibly sleepy now tho dunno how im still up hehe

newho fankies mich for gr8 day sat was well kewl them milkshakes were yummy for ur tummy hehe

fingz are good lil bit lonly wud like a chik but not moanin that much hehe cus i feel good am happy just well tired, nite nite

the trilogy is complete

Tue, 31 May 2005 17:16:22 GMT

so here is the final song of me song trilogy i fink the story is pretty obvious in it hehe is meant to be a more happier song so is faster and bit punky is the end of the story and i fink the whole story through the three songs is quite beautiful to behonest, but let me know what u fink as always

NINE SEMSTERS AND A SUNNY DAY LATER

Three years had passed by
Don’t ask me to explain why
My phone started vibrating,
Sitting at the bottom of my stairs
Playing with my unwashed greasy hair
And it was you I’d been anticipating,
Your voice was at the other end of the line
That moment everything seemed to be just fine
Is this the call to end all my waiting?
Or is it the call I would end up hating?

I had thought of so many things to say
Upon hearing your voice they just gave way
To catching up and laughter we shared,
The memories we told of old times
All the fun we used to have in the sunshine
The anger in me just disappeared,
Darkness turned into rays of light
Talking to you just felt so right
Could this mean all the time you really cared?
Or is it the start of everything I had feared?

Three hours later we were still on the phone
You and your apology for the way u had to go
For breaking my heart you pleaded guilty,
You said three years apart was no time at all
As you told me you were stood outside the door
My heart felt life after it had been running on empty,
I ran out and you held me in a lovers embrace
The first time in three years I’d ever felt safe
In all my life I had never seen anything so pretty
As you telling me our love would last for an eternity

We went walking in the rain
Held hands and u never let go again
You said you had something to mention,
As the raindrops fell down your face
And smudged your make up all over the place
It was actually more of a confession,
As you told me that you were always faithful
So I told you that you were always beautiful
Because missing you had become my profession
I think by now we had both learnt a valuable lesson

We walked for what felt like a hundred miles
We shared what felt like a million smiles
Found ourselves under our old apple tree,
Your hands on my hips you gave me a kiss
As I looked at you in the early morning mist
Amongst wild flowers you got down on one knee,
My eyes got heavy as they filled with tears
The perfect ending for the last three years
In that meadow that’s where u proposed to me
And that makes today our first anniversary

haha

Thu, 26 May 2005 21:40:17 GMT

ooo yeah forgot 2 add that my mom well freaked at me cus i told her im not havin a birthday so she gotta tell evry1 not 2 get me nefin or say happy bday to me or evryfin she well freaked she fought i was gonna jump off a cliff or joined sum weird cult hahahaha she was like y and im jsut like i dont want a bday is that simple haha she well freaked but i fink i got msg thru haha in the end,

and bloody hell is it jsut me or is it well roastin 2nite jebus of naserath is well hot im meltin haha omg im so bored i really am sum1 saaaaave me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

boo

Thu, 26 May 2005 18:20:38 GMT

i feel good 2day have dun alst couple of days so thas all good a smile has found its way onto me face so hope it stays there, watched the footy last nite was kewl and tlked 2 family cus they all got back off hols, and 2day watched the cricket yeah i know im sad but wot else have i got 2 do haah i dont have friends remember, newho i am desperate to get out as i have nuffin planned thas really sad haha ahh well i have 2 live with it, ne offers would be welcome, hope mich is better now she has always been ill recent i blame mark i do she was neva ill b4 him well she was mentally ill haha but thas diff haha and i hope evry1 i know is alrite (thas not many ppl tho haha) i need to get out haha

that reminds me humans are evolving into birds they ahve started nesting well this 1 bloke has up brum, saw him sat but then i was like ahh its brum full of weirdos there haha see in wolvo we jsut have the mentalist preacher and the cowboy stalker who hasnt been seen in like a year maybe he got arrested, but brum is jsut full of weirdos haha

haha on news jsut sum kev up manc got banned by the police for wearin a hoody, he aint allowed to wear 1 for 5 years now haha finally kevs/shazs/chavs/scalies will be wiped out made extinct and the world will be a better place, i say we shud do what we used 2 do jsut ship them all to australia haha

oooo my hair is all soft hehe *plays wiv it*

newhoodle me be off now

toodle pip
xxx

sunday

Sun, 22 May 2005 23:41:12 GMT

2day was kewl got up bout 12 watched fa cup final which i taped fom yday then emssed about on line a bit, my niece came round bout 8 so i cooked her tea we had chiken tika and chips she sed it was well nice, even tho i dont cook much i have 2 say i am pretty good haha then we watched saw on dvd was kewl i prety much guessed wot was gonna happen tho haha seen better but it was kewl, then we had ice cream and watched school of rock that was funny then was 12 and me nieces bf karl came round 2 call for her then she went so here i am now about 2 watch top gear which i taped, been busy weekend for my standards and has been good no time 2 think, thinkin is bad for me gets me down lol so fingz are good ive probly put on weight wiv the shit i been eatin, 2 moz i mite watch lotr agen all of them haha thas a bit of a treck, 10 hours of film haha it can be dun i have watched more than that in a day before, hehe how sad am i, but im good jsut well tired and worn out, i been well thirsty 2day for sum reason lol so me gonna get drink watch top gear go bed me finks

hope evry1 is ok

toodle pip
xxx

kewl day makes a change hehe

Sun, 22 May 2005 00:58:34 GMT

so i got up and got ready and shit and set the video 2 tape the footy, went out bout 1145ish just started rainin as i went out but was only spittin got to town for 1230 had to wait bout 15 mins for becki was kewl she gave me big hug which was nice me likes hugs neva get ne tho hehe and we got the train 2 brum i gave her her bday prezzie and i got anova hug hehe i fink she relaly liked her shoesies i dunno y i always buy ppl shoes haha, but was kewl sog ot 2 bruma dnwent round random shops and chatted lots was nice then it started rainin and i love the rain so much so we walked about in the rain for ages and it was so beautiful awwwww was well good, beckie bought sum stuff and she saw this cute lil keyring in clintons bobble the blue owl or sumfin bobble was once a ball and then a baubel now he's a bobble or sufmin liek that hehe aw he was cute tho so got her that and we walked round lots was kewl was really fun day had ltos of laffs hehe, and walkin in the rain rules even if it did screw me hair up, neway got becki back to wolvo for 515 hehe she was bit late but it didnt amtter cus we had good day, ooooooo and this pwetty emo chik well eyed becki up haha wasnt impressed lol, neway got abck 2 wolvo and she went so i got bus back and walked home in the rain which i love then me neice foned me sayin she was gonna play a game wiv her bf was old game me and me niece used 2 playw en we was lil so she wanted me 2 come round but as i ahdnt ate nefin all day iw ent home and cooked me T 1st then went over, so we started playin this game at 730 is kinda like warhammer/dundgeouns and dragons kinda game but is buck rogers (used to be on tv) so u had allt he lil characters and lil ppl and spaceships and stuff on amssive board and u move them around attackign each other is well kewl, but we finished playing at 130 precisley hehe so the game took 6 hours haha was kewl tho cus me nieces bf is well nice we have a alff so is all gud me niece fell asleep playin it bless her awwwww was kewl thos so i ahd reallyg ood day and im glad cus havnt had a good day sicne was out wiv mich last sat, so was good and am gonna cook me niece her dinner 2moz me finks so is kewl, and every1 back off holiday wed hehe im knackerd now tho hehe so toodle pip

xxx